[Verse 1: Thornbro]
Right now I’m in a dark place,
But it’s hard to assume that the people by my side telling lies not true,
With the heartache,
I’m alone in my room but I keep it together like when the clock strikes noon,
For a minute,
Then I’m in it in the past looking back thinking bout everything that I coulda had,
And I got it,
But I wonder, is it enough? Then I think of all the people that are showing love,
But not me, not me, it’s too hard to,
I really wanna and I know I came too far to,
Relapse fall back to the old me,
But it’s bout time that I really show the whole me,
So, I take a little in the mirror,
Clean the blood off so I see a little clearer,
The old me that I’m fearing,
The voice in my head is so loud that I hear him.
[Voices]
[Verse 2: Thornbro]
It’s nights like these that I never want to go back,
To the sad me, never want to show that,
Say I’m happy, not everyone knows that,
That the bad me is someone that I hold back,
Cause, I’m very scared and ashamed,
That my dark side’ll show and give me a back name,
So I focus, but it’s hard to do that,
When the fact of the matter is that, I’m going insane,
No more complaining and saying that I won’t make it,
No more hating and saying I like to fake it,
No more debating and playing all of my games with,
No more contemplating that I can’t take it,
Yea, I think that every day,
But the voice in my head turns it the other way then he says,
I won’t be S#*&,
But he’s wrong cause you’ll never see me quit.
Emcee Lab [Music 286 - section 003] is a course on the art of emceeing in the music department at the University of North
Carolina at Chapel Hill. Co-taught by emcee/professor Pierce Freelon and Median the course is part of the Carolina Beat Academy (also including Beat Making and DJ Labs), supported by the Departments of Music and African, African American and Diaspora Studies....more